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I had a friend come over Saturday night. I don't think I've had a friend come over Saturday night in years. It was the start of a change in me. For many people having friends over is commonplace, it's "normal"... Whatever normal is. It's hasn't been my "normal" for many years. I could stop and analyse why, and I could come up with a whole host of reasons. But what's the benefit in that? The past happened. The future hasn't happened yet, and I'm in charge of that. My life is what it is, my future is what I make it. I truly believe that if you want something enough you can make it happen. I've been feeling pretty motivated lately to take charge. I accept there are some things which are out of my control but it just means I have to find ways around them or re-evaluate what's important to me. I have my goals. I have people in my life that matter. I have a future.

I last blogged in September 2018. I honestly hadn't realised it had been so long since I last wrote in here. One thing that has become clear is that sometimes the life you plan and hope for is not the one you're going to get. Or at least it might not happen the way you think it's going to happen or when you think it will. A lot of people are doing the ten year reflection, but for me, to simply reflect back to where I was when I last posted to today is enough. My life is almost unrecognisable in some ways and in others not different at all. I'm still a parent but the way I'm parenting is very different. There's still two parents but we are both dealing with our own battles, travelling our own paths while trying hard to keep our child at the heart of what we do. Parenting a child when you're separated is a totally different ball game. I'm still trying to work out how to do this, how much to communicate and share, how much is too much, when is it to