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Life is for living

My last post was November 2021. 10 whole months ago. 10 months since I gave myself permission to say yes.

What have I said yes to?

I've said yes to opening my heart, yes to the scary act of allowing someone to not just get close to me but get close to my son.

I've said yes to adventures and making future plans. These have mostly been done with caution and testing the waters, making sure that where my decisions affect Little Legs I take my time and make sure he is OK with things.

But I haven't always exercised caution. Some things have just been embraced without fear. Climbing mountains, sleeping on top of mountains, getting back to activities from my youth such as kayaking.

I've always been one for doing things that others may fear, the static line parachute jump in 2010 for example. 

For the first time in many years I'm feeling excited about the future, and feel stronger and confident in dealing with the challenges that will come along the way.

Some challenges will be huge, some will be smaller but no less hard. But it's all good.

Bring on the adventures. If there's something you've always wanted to do but have been scared, face that fear and do it. Life is for living, you're only on this Earth once.



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