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Getting real

I'm one of those people who generally believe that if you want to do something then you should just get on and do it.

And I knew that at some point in my pregnancy obviously some things I'd just have to accept I couldn't do.

Up until nearly a fortnight ago I was still climbing ladders to paint walls and generally doing everything as normal.  It's finally hit me that I need to slow down and think more about taking it easy. 

This is not easy to do.  I find it very hard to relax and do nothing.  I can sit on the sofa and to all intents and purposes look relaxed but my mind is in constant overdrive listing all the things I could and should be doing. 

Today is no exception.  Despite some kind of stomach upset which has had me being sick and managing pain all I can think about is getting organised and finishing off jobs that are outstanding. 

Somebody please teach me how to switch off.

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